Monday, December 17, 2007

My Suspicion Is Correct

I remember I mentioned about the true friend in this blog sometime ago. I just found out that the true friend is my boyfriend's ex-wife's sister. I suspected this long ago and the truth was out during a casual talk with her. I have been very upset for the past 3 days and since I know the truth there is nothing to confront him about his ex-wife.

BUT..something else my friend told me has been nagging me all these days...I've been loosing sleep these few day over it. It looks like my boyfriend got into a second marriage immediately after the 1st one and got a child. I'm not sure how far this is true because my friend is my boyfriend's other woman's sister and of course she will have many bad things to say about him. But I do not know why but I still do not hate him even if it is true and this information has been withheld from him. I must get the truth out somehow. It's all in my hands and do not want my girlfriend to be in any kind of trouble. I'm contemplating on how to go about asking him about my suspicion.

I have been truthful to him so far and I know for myself that I am not a bad person at all and my relationship with him was all with good intention. If he tells me the truth, my respect for him will be there forever!! and this is the truth.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

What I'm Reading Now

Finished reading Jodi Picoult's "My Sister's Keeper"

I have heard a lot about Jodi Picoult and her novels and always wanted to read her novel until recently when my friend Lisa passed me the book and I was caught by surprise. She did not tell me that she was bringing Jodi Picoult's book for me to read.

The novel is told in different perspectives like Anna, Campbel, Sara and Jess. This helps the reader understand the feelings and inner turmoil of the characters in the novel.

The plot is unique where Anna takes legal action against her parents for making use of her body to save her sister Kate's life. Readers were surprised that Anna's birth was scientifically designed just to help Kate. Anna was poked and prodded within a few months of her birth and this can be sad.

Picoult did not offer much in Kate's perspective but I feel that it would be good if we knew how Kate felt about the whole thing where Anna has to keep saving her forever.

Picoult added a bit of fairytale where Kate fell in love with another terminally ill guy who went for dates and dance. This development really makes her parents proud as her parents felt that Kate would never be able to go for dates like an ordinary teenager or even see her graduate (as she was terminally ill).

Another fairytale in Picoult's novel is that Sara (Anna and Kate's mum) is an attorney too who was able to express how she felt as a mother during the court's trials.

The end of the novel was also a fairy tale. Picoult choose to kill Anna (the angel) and her kidneys were just right for Kate who survived in the end.

Does this mean that Scientifically designed kids are not natural and eventually be taken away from us because we use them for selfish means?

What Have I Achieved

It's already Dec 08 and here is a list of my achievements :



1) Got my basic degree in Eng Lang and Lit in Sep 08 (after 6 long years of part-time studies)



2) This was the year that I had high scores for my assignments (Shooting right up to 80 marks)



3) Donned the graduation gown, walking down the aile making my parents proud of me at least for once.



4) Got myself to speakup at work for my rights when some reforms affected me and my work



5) Have lent a listening ear to my friends Geeta, Jasbir and even Rash (and am proud of that) and have also given them good advise



6) Made good friends at SIM this year when it is also my final year(Lisa, Siti, Shifa and Hidayh)

7) At least attempted to keep in touch with Gen (but got wiered replyfrom her, but I'm not bothered)



Things that I've got to achieve by Dec 09



1) Own a HDB flat and stay independently



2) Get a job of my dreams with full satisfaction



3) Be confident of myself (despite my flaws which is not my fault at all)



4) Wish that at least now I'll know who my prince charming would be. Think it would be now or never!



5) Not to brood over how life has been so far but also able to face things with a lightheartedness!