The Books That I've Just Read

I've just finished reading the two books by Dave Pelzer. They are, "A Child Called IT" and "The Lost Boy". I liked "The Lost Boy" more than Pelzer's first book. I really really admire Pelzer's courage to have endured so much as a child and had stayed strong throughout his ordeal.

In "The Lost Boy", my heart really sunk at the part when he had only his crumpled paper package to pack his belonging and had to leave numerous times to other foster homes that were suitable for him. Each time he had to leave for another foster home, he got the crumpled paper bag ready. This happened frequently in his life so much so that it was a routine for him and he was mentally and emotionally prepared for the move to other foster homes. David was only looking for a place to stay and keep himself warm. He just did not care about the constant moving to other foster homes. During each move, he was naturaly afraid but he somehow overcame the fight. Guess all this must be nothing for David as compared to the toture from his biological mother when he was a child.

David yearned for love. He yearned for the love that he did not get from his bilogical parents. He began to love some of his foster parents, but had to leave them due to circumstances. As David grew older, he learned that he had to avoid emotional attachment with his foster parents as he knew that his stay at a foster parent's house won't be long and sooner or later, he will be separated from them and any emotional attachment with his foster parents would only make his move or rather separation difficult.

I can imagine how a child or teenager has to adapt to a new enviornment each time he moves into a new foster home; and the rules and regulations that David has to adhere to in each and every foster home. On top of that, he has to adjust with the other foster children in the house. Some foster parents were strict and some were lenient.

As a child, David was prejudiced in the eye of the outside world, just because he was a foster child. The neighbourhood ostracised him just because he was a foster child.

Thanks David for the insightful book and creating an awareness of child abuse and the actions the affected can take.

For all that David had gone through, he has proved that he is indeed strong and he is surely blessed and will be blessed forever.

I have not read Dave Pelzer's last sequel but I can see that he will love his son more than anything else in this world and that's for sure.

Some Dreams Go Unfulfilled

It has been such a long time since I visited this site. This was due to my one-year course that I took since last Oct which ended this Oct. I barely had any time to update my blog. Most of the time was spent on studying and doing assignments.

Yesterday, I met my cousins after a long long time (may be 10years). They are of my age and they have children, some of whom are teenagers. K brought up her children single-handedly and now they are teenagers. Must have been a struggle for her but she should thank her parents for helping her.

V has 2 children, one is 9 and the other is only 2. They too have their ups and downs but I guess on the surface, building the family and preserving it is of utmost importance.

I've got nothing to say of myself. Age is catching up on me and I don't think I should wait till this dream is fulfilled. I've come to a stage where I've got to forego this dream, as I've got to realise that some dreams go unfuilfilled and I've got to face this stark reality. Although my achievments are gratifying for me, I loose out on having a family. Not everyone gets married and has familiy in this world. Some of them go unmarried and God has destined that will be one of them.