Woke up at 6am to dress up yesterday. My mum bought the saree from Delhi and this is the first time I am tying a sree after a long time. My mum helped me tie the saree. Now I just want to learn how to tie saree myslef because the "pallu" was pretty long and I could not walk comfortably.
I just sat all the time at the wedding and did not move at all. The wedding went well but had this unstable heartbeat at the wedding. Some kind of fear. This could be because of my past bad experiences. Anyway, the youngersters nowadays are intelligent. Not the same when I was was naive 10 years ago. They can lead a happily married life.
Left for home at about 1pm after a vegetarian meal. Loved the meal but my mum as sister did not like it at all.
Aunt told me that she wants to introduce me to a man from Australia who wants to get to know Indian woman. I'm not hopeful because my colleague who is also a good friend of mine has ever told me the same thing. She was in Australia last year and she met her sister-in-law's neighbour. She wanted to introduce me to him but she had to go through her sister-in-law and I do not know what happened in between. The whole idea got lost in transition. I had to abandon that hope.
Similar news came from my aunt yesterday. Do not want to be hopful because God has some plans for me. I have left it to HIM. He knows best. If I am fated to remain single, then it is God's wish.
I know that I am lonely and this loneliness can even make me mad but guess it is fated. God is afraid that I may not love Him if I get to know someone. My happiness is always short lived.
