I was called for interview on 27 June and a second interview on 4 July. I've not heard from them since then. I think they are considering some others for this post, although I have not received any e-mail for rejecting me. I feel so lousy and useless. I know I am talented buy how else can I prove myself; I do not know.
How nice would it be to work in a nice organisation as compared to where I am working now, in a place where people are so cold towards one another. I feel so small and useless.
I am reading a fiction entitled, "Harvesting the Heart" by Jodi Picoult. It enables me to bring me to an imaginary world and this is an escape for me. I can't find any other way to escape from repeatedly questioning myself if I will be offered the job.
If I get this job, it will be a stepping stone to my success. My current company has undermined my potential despite showing them that I am capable of doing more. I know I have achieved what I had wanted in life. I just want to prove myself that I can do more than what they think I can do.
My parents will be disappointed if I did not get the job and I will be greatly disappointed too. I hate this waiting game.
When I walk alone outside, I see people going to work and think for myself, "these people must have done very well for thier interviews to secure a job of their liking" unlike me. I'm already old and people are hesitating to hire me I guess.
I am thinking of taking up the IELTS and a TESOL or TEFEL to pass my time. Courses after courses, but no one wants to hire me.
I just feel like screaming my heart out and crying till my tears have dried up. This is how much sad I have been all this while.
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